Dont beat yourself up, sadly, there is no schedule for these things. Doesnt help the thoughts and feelings. I think of him every day. It was good to meet you as well. Im just glad we went to SJ on our way to Nevada for our family reunion to visit Calvin and family. He asked" why did you come all this way, its not on the way to Fallon"? And I said , "just to come visit you" , he was totally shocked that we would do that. Calvin was literally speechless for a few seconds, which is remarkable.